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In the Thread: What I am doing?

Post Subject: What am I (Axel) doing?Posted by Axel on: 7/23/2009

so, since I so, since I could not as yet, get myself fired from this thread, and what was actually meant by my comment (…fired!), let’s see if we can get back into the subject.

I obviously also listen to music, and I also deal with the mechanics/electronics of it.
(I’m a mechanical trained engineer, therefore somewhat electronically inferior or challenged, I know)

I also think, the one past-time only intersects with the other and is not to be confused as to be the same --- B U T, if the second thing (the mechanic etc.) is not reasonably sorted, the first does not work for me at all.

Having to listen to ‘music’ (if you could still call it that) on a system that emanates sound only with out actually ‘making’ some music is like torture to me, and I am forced to leave the venue. I know this can be pretty upsetting to some ‘sound only’ creators, but I will have to suffer the ‘creator’s’ rejection, since the torture is a lot worse to me then his rejection.

Now, why is it that so many people have no problem in this regard? Maybe it’s just genetics, and a certain lack of caring, followed by the moronic comfort of being blasted by sound mainly?

So now genetics, and then 'moronic' came up (one of the Cat’s favoured assessments).

Back to music, I like listening to e.g. Mozart, Beethoven, Bartok, …
These, and yet some others are (at least by some experts) considered having been ‘autistic’ (there are levels!) and in this context having had ‘savantism’ I nicer word for being ‘idiot savants’.

Ok, idiots are noted for IQ below 20, Imbecile 20-49 IQ, Moron (the ‘Cats’ favourite) 50-69 IQ with mental age of about 8 to 12 years.

All that is interesting in this context, is that some VERY gifted people can be idiotic all at the same time. And it shows in their interaction with others being made very difficult, and also maybe due to them BEING extremely gifted.

Look at the three composers I mentioned. ALL of them died reasonably early, Mozart taking the lead, Beethoven decided to go deaf (I guess he got so fed up listing to all those other Morons), Bartok decided this world was not for him either, and died pretty early also.

Yet their gifted music still fascinates, a lot of us, today.

Next, why am I posting on a site of what could turn out yet some other ‘idiot savant’? Because gifted ‘idiotic’ people ARE fascinating, never mind them being practically always abusive because they have such a hard time suffering Morons (as they would have it) in their surroundings. That’s why they prefer animals mostly to humans as animals do not even attempt to pretend having any intelligence.

So what do I do? Try to constantly follow my curiosity driven nature, in music, making objects, often related to audio, find stimulation in subjects of interest to ME.
So in that sense I am also a very selfish person. I get altruistic (same thing really, as the Cat noted) in helping people or making them feel good (sometimes only) because I derive a very selfish pleasure from it.
However, it is NOT in any way giving me pleasure to make people feel shit, simply because I do not derive pleasure from this, and not because I am a very nice individual.

Now, if I had mentioned all of this to a woman that asked me “what are you doing?” only some soul-mate type of female would have listened to it all. Most women in my experience ask such a question, simply to get an idea of you ‘economic value’ and not about your state of mind. In this sense the are like cats, if their's no ‘food’ there is no natural interest.

And now I’ll go back and listen to Bartok‘s ‘Concert for Orchestra’ by Seiji Ozawa and the CSO (on Angel Stereo SFO-36035) and very nice I think.

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